Peaceful Interlude:

I have a moment of peace coming. For those who know how ill I am, for those who have quietly stood by my side knowing that, I could go... with a bad fit. The ones who love me in my craziness, when the pressure becomes too much for a little while, I unleashed, For those who made me smile, and laugh the darkness away, through my waking seizures or those silent moments of terror as I deciding if I wanted to live or not. For those who said that's not right as I have been threatened, harassed, assaulted by living arrangements, cops, or my own dysfunction. I have such a deep love for all it is hard for me to explain, if you could see the gentle rolling tears as I weep in the dark, maybe a little spark of what is carried in me, brought to me, by light workers and bearers, will leak into your world and give back 10 times what I have or receive. My neighbor is moving with all the people causing much trouble. I hear she has a pool in the back yard, and is happy. this gives me peace. I hope it is close, so she can see her grandson. (without me in contention. My blessing with children is a secret sometimes.) I am in joy for all this to end, no more violence, of speech, of thought, of action of retaliation, of air of, or me locking myself in my home. I became very ill in just a few weeks. I am ready the best i can to give this to you and keep it with me, humility, empathy, and charity of heart. Thor